Throughout our lives we go through many struggles, trials
and tribulations. Some are easier to get
through than others, and some seem so intense that we end up in a down
state of mind wondering if we'll make it through. Drowning in our sorrows is not what God
wants from us so he places things or people in our path that will help us get
through it.
This spring I had one
of those many moments. You see, for some
reason my husband and I have had trouble conceiving. It took us two years to conceive our first
child. In the mist of trying for our
second child, we had the great news that we were expecting only to realize that
a week later we would miscarry. I found
myself thinking and questioning God a lot. I was not at peace and my joy was
crushed. I knew I had to get involved in
activities to get my mind off of things and I started reading again. My sister in law lent me a book called “Heaven
is for Real” by Todd Burpo, Sonja Burpo, and Colton Burpo.
“Heaven is for Real” is about a child who gets severely ill and
“dies” during surgery. In the process, he goes to Heaven, meets God, Angels and
family members. Overall the book was
very moving and I was able to open up my eyes to experience and be in the world
this little boy had experienced. One of
his family members was the sister he never met.
Before Colton was born, his mother had miscarried and now that little
Angel was in heaven and was a she.
Colton saw his sister, met her and played with her. She didn’t have a name because she wasn’t
born. This book and that specific
chapter brought out some immense joy, and helped me grieve and heal from my
experience of having a miscarriage. My
questions were answered. I now know that
someday we will meet our little one; the one that we haven’t met, but the one I
know God is taking care of because he/she is sitting with Him at the thrown. For those who have suffered this experience,
pick up the book! It will be a moment of healing.
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